So different

You are a completely different model. So different in personality and temperament to your brother and sister. Your own person with a will so infuriatingly stronger than mine.

I start the day with an energy, ready to cajole and nudge you in the direction I need you to go; to the breakfast table, to the bathroom, into your clothes and out of the door. Within 30 minutes I am spent, mental exhaustion renders me impatient with a tendency to shout. 

Why won't you do anything I ask? Why do you laugh as I chase you round the table with your coat in my hands? Why can't you see how tired I am?

Because you are three. And it's all a game.

When your big brother and sister were three they played games too, but not with my emotional wellbeing. They played with toys.

They would do what I needed them to do, without shouting or tears. At least, that's how I remember it. Why are you so different?

Because you are you. And I need to remember that.

I need to learn how to be a different mum for you. One who can be a little more patient. One who has some new tricks up her sleeve. One who can take a few deep breaths.

I'll try. 

In the meantime, will you please just put on your coat!

365project Week 6 2013

When you are looking at the world through a (wannabe) photographers eyes, you see detail, and colour and contrasts that you wouldn't have noticed before.

The problem with that is you are easily distracted and forget that life is still going on around you, that your husband was mid conversation with you, that the children have turned feral instead of eating lunch.

Must pay more attention!

I mean, look at these photos.

It took me ages to arrange the crochet monsters soduko style
I stood for a fair while to get the best vine detail against the most interesting stone work.
I waited patiently for Misty to get into the right position on her coordinating bed.
The Wee One just wouldn't play with his playmobil the way I wanted to get the best photo.
The Big One had a massive rush of blood to his head while I found my iphone.
Getting the folds of my new blinds just right took an age.
The Big One kept moving his hand. Tut!

See photography is a patient art. So the world will need to be patient with me.

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